Turkey Sandwiches and Inadequacy

I have to kill time today until our 2:00 staff meeting. Thomas (from the mentorship program) and I were supposed to meet at 9:30, but he cancelled. He's a nice guy with potential, but he has cancelled twice in four weeks and I don't think that bodes well. Not that I'm going to punish him or anything because hey, if he doesn't show up it's less work for me. It's his career. Perhaps he just doesn't like me. Hmm. Anyway, I'll just use the time to blog. I won't type all the way up until 2:00, don't worry! I have to leave for a different meeting at 10:15 so I'll have to shut it off before that.

I ate a turkey sandwich at 6am today. I intended to save it for lunch between meetings, but it looked so good sitting there in my bag as I went to grab for an oatmeal bar that I decided I couldn't wait any longer. And I didn't want to have to dig out my access card to get through two security doors just to put my sandwich in the refrigerator in the break room. It was either get food poisoning from bad mayonnaise later or eat the sandwich early. It was tastey.

I've been feeling really inadequate lately. I'm sure everyone goes through phases like this. I thought mine could be attributed to Aunt Flo last week, but it's lingering this week. Maybe overwhelmed is a better word than inadequate. I just feel like there is not enough time in the day to do everything I want or feel I have to do, and then when I do give my attention something it doesn't turn out as well as I wanted it to. This applies mostly to writing projects and leadership opportunities outside of work, but also to friendships. I can do better than I've been doing lately.

I took The Four Agreements off the bookshelf yesterday so I will be reminded to read it again this week. Don Miguel Ruiz to the rescue...